J – Journalling

Dear Diary…

Haaaaa just kidding but I do wana do a quick little post about having a diary.

I think I mentioned in another post that a few years back when I was struggling to deal with some news of a pretty horrific revelation, and my brain turned to absolute mush, I had picked up a pen and just the process of having to slow my thoughts down to a speed where I could make a sentence and write it down was immensely powerful for me. 

(That sentence is way too long but I cba punctuating it haha)

I remember keeping a diary when I was about 16 and I basically just wrote every day about how much I was in love with Wentworth Miller and how I would meet him one day and we’d get married and live happily ever after.

My Mum took Dan and me on holiday that year to Canada and New York. Not that I’ve ever read it back that I can remember but it’s cool to have it available. I started a few but didn’t finish a lot of them. Until 2018 the fullest one I had was March-December 2013. Last year though I did my first full year, which was a pretty epic year to do it. 

Not only did it provide an outlet for how I felt but it holds so many amazing memories! I can barely remember what I had for my tea last night so it’s pretty handy. Last year I had a dated diary which did stress me out a bit coz I made it so far I didn’t want to miss a day but sometimes I just didn’t have time to write what I had been doing. 

This year I went for buying a notebook style which is less stressful and I just write where and when I want to and it’s so much more relaxed. I’m not as strict as I was last year which is a bit annoying but still jot down when I have time or could use some clearance.

I know a lot of people think it’s all dear diary, today I saw a rainbow, did 3 pees and went to work. Sometimes it is, sometimes you have nothing to write, but it doesn’t need to be like that. Don’t knock it til you try it. 

I know there are now apps but I’ve always had an old fashioned kind. I don’t think the paranoia of someone reading them would be manageable in a cyber world.